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Thursday, August 6, 2009
She Spoke and She's Full (Part Deux)
As I pull out the jeans I wore on Thursday night, I remember standing at the airport in Charlotte, holding a sign to alert others in our group that this was where we were meeting. The sign said “Hungry Girls” and people wondered if they should give me money as they passed me in the airport baggage terminal. But I needed the Bread of Life that only Jesus gives on that day. As I remove the jacket from my suitcase, I see myself sitting at the awesome dinner that Tracy Vinson put together for all the women who arrived early on Thursday. Yet I was filled to the measure by the spiritual buffet I partook in by communing with my Jesus for three glorious days. I take out the sweaty exercise clothes, and giggle as I remember the first time I met Van in the elevator. Just as Jesus met me when I was still a long way off in the distance.
I pull out the white structured jacket from Friday- the one Jeannie Burlowski advised us all to wear on the pre-conference call about how to have a successful publisher meeting and miraculously, it didn’t get a single stain that day. Even still, the garments of my heart have been washed whiter than snow by the faithfulness of Christ. I unroll the white polka dot dress, the one that made me feel like myself in the midst of aching to fit in. Yet God never intended for me to conform to this world, but to become a new creation through Jesus. I remove the petticoat I wore underneath the white polka dot dress, and laugh that I forgot safety pins to secure it tightly, and the night before I wore it I was cutting holes with nail clippers and weaving ribbon in it so it would stay up. With God- all things are possible, even if it’s a burning bush, a talking donkey, or a Holy Child born in a humble manger.
I take the size 14 black pants from my suitcase, and was surprised at how comfortable they were even though they were dress pants. Grace, grace, grace. Next is the white polka dot shirt that reminded me of the uniform of a waitress from a 50’s diner. We are called to be servant leaders, and washers of feet. I remove the binders and papers that were given to me as a new part of the Proverbs 31 family. She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue. I lift out the shoes- one pair with black polka dots, and the other with white ones. Take off your sandals, for the place you are standing is Holy ground.
As I lift up my favorite black polka dot dress I wore on Sunday morning, I remember how good it felt when I changed my clothes before going to the airport. Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
Before I know it, my suitcase is unpacked- and I have to wonder. What now?
For the mountain top experience I just had at SheSpeaks cannot equal the drudgery of everyday life. Laughter in hotel rooms late in the night can’t compare to a pile of laundry. Watching the Spirit of God descend down on a room full of women is far from the burnt macaroni and cheese I served last night for dinner. Lysa’s keynote speech about finding your own remarkABLE makes the rest of my life seem utterly unremarkable.
So what now? I have memories, a few pictures, and a binder full of lessons. What else did I bring back with me?
Well, I brought my polka dots…
...and every time I see a polka dot, I am going to remember my 600 plus new sisters in Christ and lift them before the Father. I will smile when the kids are whining "I'm hungry," remembering how something silly like a Hungry Girl sign made people look at me in a different light- and I will strive daily to show how hungry and thirsty I am for God. The next time I hear a roll call or a list of names, I will remember that each of our names were lovingly prayed over before we even got there. Next time I see a Hersheys Kiss, I will remember that Lysa T. gave up her love of all things sugar so I could be blessed and equipped- and trust me, my sweet sister, Jesus honored your obedience.
My suitcase is empty, but my heart is full to the point of bursting. For I saw faces reflecting the glow of being in the presence of our God. Of being broken before our Master.
And there was such beauty in our brokenness.
We are still, though miles apart, the body of the Living Christ.
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
SheSpoke and She'sFull (Part Une)
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Ramdom acts of truth
Yep. I’m a terrible speller. It’s documented.
But my question is this- did you notice? Quite a few people have looked at this site, (more than I ever anticipated or hoped) but only one person brought it to my attention. (Thank you Julia, English and Grammar fanatic! Seriously, you should get paid millions to edit books. You’d be worth every penny!)
So, as usual, in my random brain, I see a few possibilities as to why I have missed this error for three and a half months.
You didn’t notice it. An M looks much like an N, especially in the lower case. The word doesn’t look wrong at first glance. It is only when you take the time to carefully evaluate the word, will you find that it is, in fact, wrong. I can’t tell you how many times I have grazed over words in a rush and missed their meaning. Or I listen to preachers, professors, and elders in the church who profess that the Bible means it this way. It looks like a duck, walks like a duck…but is it really a goose? How often have I personally taken the time to test what other people say? So often in my ignorance, I assume that people who are more established in the faith are automatically right. But I am only furthering my ignorance by not seeking the truth for myself. Perhaps I should start investigating things for myself on a much deeper level. The truth is truly found when we find it for ourselves, right? Job 28:27 - then he looked at wisdom and appraised it; he confirmed it and tested it.
You did notice it, but you didn’t mention it. Aaaahhh, the old “you have food stuck in your teeth” dilemma. Do you tell someone the truth, or do you let them go on believing everything is fine? Is it your place to tell them something is amiss? I dealt with this situation on such a grand scale this week that I gave myself a migraine. Honestly, I did. I had to make such a huge judgment call on something that affected several people. But when it came down to it, I had to do what I felt was right. I prayed about it, worried over it, and cried about it. In the end, it made a lot of people mad. And I’m at peace with that. (this matter was not about broccoli in bicuspids. It was about the safety of someone who can’t protect themselves.) As Christians, we are supposed to love one another. So why do we think love is only the happy gooey stuff? When did loving someone become withholding the truth, even though it will make them a better person?
In the Battle Hymn of the Republic, the lyrics say "Glory glory hallelujah, His truth is marching on!" Ok, so we can deduct that the truth is something that is active, on the move. We find this fact confirmed in Psalm 26:3- for your love is ever before me, and I walk continually in your truth. The truth pushes us forward. So why are we hanging back? Are we scared that if we speak in truth (AND LOVE) that we will be rejected? Are we afraid that standing up for the truth will make us less popular? Oh, that’s right. Jesus was the most popular well respected guy in Jerusalem when He was on the cross for sharing the truth to a world gone astray. Hmmmm…..
You just didn’t care. Ouch. I hope that’s not the case. (but if it is, I can take it!)
I’m not going to fix my spelling error. (Sorry Julia, I know it will drive you nuts now.) I am leaving it there to remind me that I need to look deeper into what I read and learn. I need to test what I come across and make sure I’m not being led astray. I need to stand up for the truth when it isn’t easy. I should never be ashamed of doing the right thing, even if it is the hardest call to make. And I need to do all of this with love in my heart.
St. Augustine says: In necessariis unitas, In essentials unity, In dubiis libertas, In doubtful things liberty, In omnibus autem caritas, But in all things love.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Giving it the old college try!
For those of you who are perhaps unaware, I am now attending college to become a minister. I thought it was a good idea at the time...you know, work more hours, get less pay, deal with constant conflict among your congregation...it's my dream job! :)
Actually, back in realityville, I am going through this collegiate experience to grow spiritually in a way I never could on my own. And it's working like crazy! What I have discovered is that Bible college is no walk in the park. I know nothing compared to the volumes of Old Testament memorized by my professors and classmates. My writing style, while cherished by you faithful readers, is unappreciated in an academic setting (even if the professors secretly love it!), and I am now trying not to be so entertaining. I have spent my entire life resisting the urge to be boring, and the task of using words to be clinical is like losing an arm. Oh, well, at least I still have you! (This is quite tongue in cheek. I'm loving every minute of it, clinical and all! I love a challenge!)
And for the spiritual growth? Lucky you, God has given me a new project that will be in the works for the next several months. A new novel, which will hopefully impact your belief system and challenge what you know about the world around you. I know the prospect of it has impacted me, and it's coming from my sanctified imagination! I have begun mapping the story, but it will not be ready to read until sometime in 2009. It is going to require some serious focus from me (because I have so much free time for that), and needs to be bathed in prayer. Any takers?
So that's what's been keeping me busy. But I promise to you that I will be more faithful in blogging more for you. You never know when a good story will hit me! So check back often, and I'll see you again. Soon, I hope!
Monday, August 25, 2008
I am a Pencil
Though he slay me, yet will I trust Him! – Job 13:15a
How blessed I am to be a pencil today!
Friday, August 22, 2008
What I do when I can't sleep.
I'm not really sure why I made this video/slideshow. No one asked me to. No one suggested that it would be a good idea. I just happen to like doing AV stuff. (and it's been a rough week, and I needed a distraction!) I like recording. I like creating. I enjoy finding new and interesting ways to get the message out. I like exposing others to my offbeat sense of humor. (Even if they don't always understand or appreciate it!)
I'm just made like that.
When God created me in the innermost parts of my mom, He knew that I was going to be an artsy person. I can't paint a sunset in the sky like my DAD, but I can paint a sunset on canvas. I can't make the trees and stones cry out in praise to my God, but I can sing an intimate or corporate song of praise to Him. I can't make someone give their time, money, or lives; but I can be a vessel that the Holy Spirit uses to encourage people to be generous and giving of themselves.
So no one asked me to go the extra mile. That's ok. No one asked Jesus to die on the cross. He just did it. If only I could find ways everyday to do more than what is required of me...if only when I find those ways to do more, I would blissfully put on the yoke and move my rear, instead of complaining that I don't enjoy the situation in front of me. If only I embraced the trials I'm facing so I might convey the hope of Christ in all things, instead of just the easy things.
I know, O LORD, that your laws are righteous,
and in faithfulness you have afflicted me.
May your unfailing love be my comfort,
according to your promise to your servant.
Psalm 119:75-76
Lord, help me today to go the extra mile. Give me grace to carry the cross with joy and peace, instead of giving those around me a piece of my mind. Expand the depths of my commitments to others, and find me faithful in the present situation You have obligated me to, even though I am not comfortable in this place. When I am in the midst of spiritual battle, and my heart and mind are weary, allow me to collapse into Your mercy seat and let you anoint my head with oil. Your goodness and mercy can be found in all situations, be they life, death, or anything in between. As my heart is put to the test today, give us comfort and peace. You are in control, even when we think you aren't. Find us faithful, and find us gracious. May we stand wholly upon Your word today. ~Amen
Friday, August 15, 2008
Random funnies
After church one Sunday morning, a mother commented, "The choir was awful this morning." The father commented, "The sermon was too long." Their 7-year-old daughter added, "You've got to admit it was a pretty good show for a dollar."
There was a farmer who raised watermelons. He was doing pretty well, but he was disturbed by some local kids who would sneak into his watermelon patch at night and eat his watermelons. After some careful thought he comes up with a clever idea that he thinks will scare the kids away for sure. So he makes up a sign and posts it in the field. The next day the kids show up and they see this sign, which says, "Warning, one of the watermelons in this field has been injected with cyanide." So the kids run off and make up their own sign, which they post next to the sign that the farmer made. The farmer shows up the next day to look over his field. He notices that no watermelons are missing but he notices a new sign next to his. He drives over to take a look. It says," Now there are two".
He'd been playing outside with the other kids for a while when he came into the house and asked her, 'Grandma, what's that called when two people sleep in the same room and one is on top of the other?' She was a little taken aback, but she decided to just tell him the truth, in a small dose. 'It's called sex, Tony, but you're a little young to really know all about it." Little Tony just said, 'Oh, OK,' and went back outside to play with the other kids. A few minutes later he came back in and said angrily, 'Grandma, it isn't called sex. It's called Bunk Beds, and Jimmy's mom wants to talk to you.'
Hope you have a day filled with joy!